But it's just a quick confidence booster for myself.

Fuck the O's. I'm gonna give it my all.

Yea, I know no one ever reads this stuff, but I'll still put this up though.

I will probably not update anything until after my exams, which end in mid-November. That will probably be when I finish pwning the exams or the exams finish pwning me. I'm hoping for the former to happen.

Umm, yeah. Ciao.

[ Disclaimer: The following post my sound egoistic but I do not have the slightest intention to be unpleasant or plainly speaking, a muthafoking prick. ]

For four years, people have been saying that I've been sitting on a throne. Recently, someone (jokingly) told me that I have sat on it for too long and soon, I would be dethroned.

He was right.

What wonders a single subject could do to affect a huge chunk of the overall score. I messed up, and I'm paying the agonising price for my mistake. Perhaps I really have been too complacent, despite constant (but apparently useless, from the looks of it) self-reminders that complacence shall be my downfall. I had dropped quite a distance down, a distance so great that it would not be easy to climb back up.

The fact that makes it even more so painful is that I'm getting my arse handed to me (on a plate) by a person whose words and actions I do not approve of.

Some have blamed me for allowing him to ascend to the top. (He's not that well-received.) However, at the end of the day, it all boils down to effort and (although I absolutely HATE to admit it) luck. I really do have to give him credit for achieving. There are definitely people who disagree with me in saying that luck is a factor in many of the things we do but I have relied on luck several times as well. In fact, I've been lucky far too many times. I'd say I only have myself to blame for not realising the urgency of the matter soon enough. Blinded for too long, indifferent to too many things.

I hope this would be a wake up call to me, as well as my inner consciousness which I am sure exists somewhere, somehow. Go downhill any further, and I can kiss my goals sayonara.

Someone, please slap me in the face.

[p.s. Yes, I'm a pessimist. I know my kind dies early.]

Woohoo! I can watch NC16 movies now! Sucks to have my birthday fall inbetween a prelim break, but heck, who cares?

Thanks to everyone who remembered the bd of such an insignificant guy like me. I really appreciate it.

And also, a big thank you to for the wonderful Saskay piece! It rocks AHAHAHAHA!

Early in the morning, my teacher walked towards me smiling. I had just expected a simple "Hi" but something I dreaded came out of her mouth instead.

"You got murdered for Social Studies. You got a flat zero for the second question." She was freaking smiling, although I think she was trying to console me.

What an awesome way to start the day! My maths paper was in 15 minutes time and I had THAT amount of time to get over the fact (I couldn't) that I lost 12% of the total marks for that wretched subject, as well as to read some last minute notes for maths.

It didn't help that I had a runny nose for the whole paper. I was literally stuffing my nose with tissue paper and thinking how many more marks I will lose for SS. Humanities were never my forte, and very few people excelled in it. However, it had to be such that for majority of the students in the country, they HAVE to use that grade for their final score. Screw that! D:

So my mind was switching constantly between solving maths questions (and chemistry later in the afternoon) and how I am in hot soup for flunking my SS paper. As much as I would have LOVED a bowl of hot soup to relieve my leaking nose, that was NOT the kind I hoped for.

Oh, please let me see the light! No amount of A1s can save me if I do not perform in humanities.

OH, THE HUMANITY! Literally.

Update: Halfway through exams and I'm faltering. Trying so hard to endure whatever crap comes my way. I've been through this countless of times, but I feel the same way every single time. (And I didn't know a certain classmate of mine actually checks here. ._. )

Update II: *Groan* My chest hurts. Must be stress lol. Bio today was...Blame it on myself for not remembering the menstrual cycle...(But how the shit do I remember stuff that I can't relate to? Dammit!)