[ Disclaimer: The following post my sound egoistic but I do not have the slightest intention to be unpleasant or plainly speaking, a muthafoking prick. ]

For four years, people have been saying that I've been sitting on a throne. Recently, someone (jokingly) told me that I have sat on it for too long and soon, I would be dethroned.

He was right.

What wonders a single subject could do to affect a huge chunk of the overall score. I messed up, and I'm paying the agonising price for my mistake. Perhaps I really have been too complacent, despite constant (but apparently useless, from the looks of it) self-reminders that complacence shall be my downfall. I had dropped quite a distance down, a distance so great that it would not be easy to climb back up.

The fact that makes it even more so painful is that I'm getting my arse handed to me (on a plate) by a person whose words and actions I do not approve of.

Some have blamed me for allowing him to ascend to the top. (He's not that well-received.) However, at the end of the day, it all boils down to effort and (although I absolutely HATE to admit it) luck. I really do have to give him credit for achieving. There are definitely people who disagree with me in saying that luck is a factor in many of the things we do but I have relied on luck several times as well. In fact, I've been lucky far too many times. I'd say I only have myself to blame for not realising the urgency of the matter soon enough. Blinded for too long, indifferent to too many things.

I hope this would be a wake up call to me, as well as my inner consciousness which I am sure exists somewhere, somehow. Go downhill any further, and I can kiss my goals sayonara.

Someone, please slap me in the face.

[p.s. Yes, I'm a pessimist. I know my kind dies early.]